Well, here I am again, my dear friends....
I am medium well done and it is only late June in Phoenix. It is almost unbearable to go outside after noon. Even leaving for a Pet Portrait workshop at nearby PetCo at 6PM takes all my determination...it is still 100 degrees outside.
Tonight I have a wonderful Bible Study at my church on "knowing who I am in Christ". Again I'll have to kick myself out the door. I get up early and try to do chores, shopping and have my quiet time during the morning hours, then often nod off for a nap while watching Fox News Special Report which airs here at 3PM instead of dinner time. Many changes......
These boring details point out a life lesson I'm learning. Stangely it is this: trusting God as my Husband requires real submission to Him. This has always been hard for us women.
When I tried to fly to Florida two weeks ago to see my friends again and attend a concert with Kari Jobe, I was stopped cold in Las Vegas. As a long time airline pass user (thanks to my pilot-son's privileges), I was stunned, since the night before I had been told I had a good chance. Earlier the previous week other blocks to this hair-brained quick trip had clearly been removed and I had been sure The Lord had opened the door for me to go.
Why had the Lord led me to believe this trip was His will for me? That was my complaint to Him all day long as I waited for a return flight to Phoenix to open up. I kept questioning until I arrived back home at 9:45 that evening! I added questions like:
"Lord, why are you allowing all this time to be wasted in the Las Vegas airport? Why have you allowed me to miss the concert I so much wanted to attend. (Kari Jobe's lyrics are a part of my book, Bouquets From My Beloved)? Why would you let me and my friends, who had been so excited to be reunited for a short period, be so dissappointed?" I wasn't exactly stamping my feet and demanding answers; I truly wanted to know.
The scripture that kept coming to me was, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Prov 3: 4-5. The only answer I've received is that I must learn to be flexible, submissive to the unknown, but cherishing care of my Husband, the Lord, who watches and guides me jealously at all times. Perhaps one day He will tell me why. But until then, like He said to His Father in the garden, "Not my will, but yours..."Mat 26:39.
So, I came away from this experience, unharmed, a little humbled, and still greatful that He, my Husband, is guiding and making my way straight....even when it seems a little crooked. And He is still God and I am still a child learning to know who I am in Christ.
Just this morning, I saw a small window of blue sky in the otherwise dreary grey overcast, a promise of the bright sun-lit day to come. God is always giving us signs of His love and faithfulness to us.......if we are looking. That is what this blog is all about. Are we looking? And what did we see, hear, smell, or feel that our loving Creator put in our path? Why does He do that? Do we really want to connect that close with His affection for us? So many questions. Let's exhange some of them, and share our own sightings!